Hi there, you can learn more about psychedelic integration here: https://thethirdwave.co/guide-to-wakeful-integration/ Hope this helps 🙂
Karina, Third Wave Team

How do you go about ‘deep personal integration work’?

Like WOW, you had some experiences going on there. I guess the moral of the last experience you mention was to learn not to be afraid of death, in whatever way may happen.

I have had bad trips where lost souls cursed at me for walking through a graveyard 1am in the morning, i have had the predator stalk me from the tree tops, demons melting into reality from dark shadows and moments where i could only observe my body walking down an empty road from 50 feet above as if i was a drone flying and controlling the body.

But none of the bad trips were as intense and frightening as dying repeatedly from ailments. Heart attacks, i would meet god and leave this world only to be thrust back into the body to start a new death from another ailment. At some point i got in the bath with all my clothes on and then got back in bed… in the middle of winter and i recall keep asking my wife why am i so cold and she kept reminding me because i am soaked and so is the bed.

That night taught me many valuable lessons.

A challenging trip is often referred to a bad trip, however Every Psychonaught has had a BAD! TRIP! and if you haven’t well just wait, you’ll get you chance. I know people who have literal PTSD from bad trips, and Ive seen even more people have psychotic breaks from bad trips so when people say there is no such thing as a bad trip i realize most of them are either parroting something they heard some spiritual con man say while gaslighting a client out of a bad trip, or they just don’t know what they are talking about

Simple yet appropriate adage.

Everyone of us who ventures into psychedelics does so for a variety of reasons. Unfortunately, the vast majority of (especially first time) users see psychedelics as a recreational party drug. You can not correct this behavior nor more than you can correct the societal issue of generalized stupidity. The only thing you can control is your own conduct and whom you choose to associate with.

A “bad” trip is going to happen eventually to each and every one of us. It is well known that it can (and will) happen even to those uneducated in psychedellics. Assuming that it will not is the equivalent to playing poker and assuming your never going to lose.

Accept your bad trip and learn from it. Do you believe that you developed as a person from only the sunniest parts of your life? It sucks. Truly. Remember… Personal growth often comes from painful places.

Namaste.

There are times that you are by yourself, yet you do not fear them. For example, before you go to sleep, your last thought is only yours and for the dreams to keep.

What are you afraid of most? Some fears are justifiable, like fear of heights ensures that you will not take risks and life happily to the next day. It is perfectly fine to be afraid.

If you are tempted to understand your fear, try a safe setting and always find a seater.

If you are struggling to find a sitter, find a community of people who share some passions and interests, something to talk about when trip goes bad.

There is a strong connection between music and psychedelic usage. Connection is there for a reason, music and community helps to even out the journey bumps.

If you are afraid of a bad trip, it is a good symptom. Think about it, wait for some time, months, years maybe and revisit psychedelics when you are in a different mental state.

Psychedelics can cause a lot of damage and it is a one way ticket.

I will give an example: I always liked pizza and could have it every day of the week, it was a commodity. Then, I was offered a slice of an most amazing pie. Since then, all of other pizzas in my memory have lost their flavour in comparison to the best one.

But then I discovered that I was just eating too much and forgot to cherish the important moments, even as simple as rediscovery of art of cooking.

Be aware of your surroundings, check consequences of your actions and use common sense. Then, a comfortable setting and a good time, not rushed, can be reallly enjoyed, no matter what it brings.

And as for the pizza story, I have learned how to make my own, and that is a treat too:)